This morning, I did not want to get out of bed. My mind was already wide awake, somehow I managed to place myself back to sleep just so as to have more minutes of slumber and blank mind. I do not want to face the harsh realities . Probably, I am chicken. Today, I might have to do one of the most difficult decisions in my life. I have no idea what and how to say matters that need to be discussed, thinking about the possibility of an encounter already brought me to tears awhile ago. Self-pity strongly sets in plus the agony of having to accept decisions not in favor of me.
I was trying to pray, words however couldn't reach my mind and mouth. I don't know how to begin my conversation with God, everything is absolutely heavily laden in my heart. I just cried. It is what happens when I feel so lost and desolated. I don't want to think I won't be able to survive my current plight because I know, I will. It's just that, on a day like today, I feel like giving up.
Prayerfully, tomorrow a bright ray of hope will present itself at my window.
Wish.Pray.Cry.
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