Ecstatic and Excited

Just when I thought I would be given a hard time with a request to be granted, it turned out to be easy breezy. The fervent wish has been patiently and quietly sitting in my heart for many months now. It is one of the few things I am looking forward, why I still get energy to rise each morning and get to work.

Every day I think about it, I knew it will knock me painful if it will not happen. So, I began to pray more often about it. I would talk to my angels, to Sta.Ana to please intercede for me.

Yesterday, in an unexpected casual conversation with my clinic manager, I kindly ask if the request may be approved, her exact words were- "Yes, you can!!!" It felt like I won  the Powerball lotto!!! I cried with mascara on my eyes, because of gladness, my heart was melting.

I was very ecstatic, during the early dinner meet up with my brothers, Kadie and Mykee.I just kept on laughing and smiling. I did not even get to eat my burger and fries at Farrell's.:)

I am thankful I have a manager who understands my plight as she has  similar situation with me. Now, I am eager, inspired and motivated as soon, I will get to be with the most special person in my life. I dream of hugging her again and to hold her frail soft hands. I'm sooooo excited but I will hide it!!!:)

Thank You God. Your ways are not my ways. I am still a work in progress.

Wish.Pray.Ask.

Freeway First Time

Today, I went to work, drove, without my Koyang Miller. My first time to drive for 44 miles without my brother at the passenger seat. I was ultra anxious last night, I even lost my appetite for steak, crabs and shrimps served at the dining table. Cars here in California run way too fast compare to PH cars.

Freeway driving is feared by many, even some of the people I spoke with relate that they got the nerve  to drive along these roads only after years of handling the wheel. I had no choice, I needed to drive to reach work. My family this time gave me tough love. Gently they told me I have to do it, Boo says I can manage. They all cheered for me. Ate Reggie's family was praying for me.

The Glorious Mysteries of the rosary guided me alongside. The rosary has always been my security and steady cushion.

I survived the fastI- 210 freeway battle. I am now lying on my bed wishing and praying for a sound sleep.

ThankYOU God and my saints especially Mama Mary and Sta. Ana for watching over me.

Courage. Strength. Faith.

My Place of Sanctuary

This place has been a witness to my many pleas, heartaches and triumphs. I used to run here for countless big and petty petitions and thanksgiving prayers. How I cherish the every day masses, the times I served the Lord as lector-commentator and collector. I keep with me the warm and thoughtful homilies of our brilliant and respected priests. 

Mary assumed into heaven,thank you for your intercession.
Please continue to pray for us especially my family and Mamang.
You know how bent I am at this time.

Pray.Glorify.Pray.

January 5, 2016

Tuesday


The dialysis clinic is closed today in order to return to the normal hours of operation tomorrow. I am stuck here at Azusa home, with the sound of rain shower in the background. It is gloomy and cold, perfect factors for depression.:( I used to like the rain and this type of bed weather but not in the recent especially now.

I turn on the lights, open the window blinds and listen to funky music to combat the dark and chilly outside. I am reading and reviewing for my final exams scheduled this Friday. I do not wanna waste time. I know I have to help myself and be productive.

This is it for now. I will search for PH airfare tickets!!!:)

Missing Mamang's face and voice.

My CHRISTMAS 2015

It was not easy but I managed.I did not break down, my heart was expectedly sad of course. I miss everything about Pampanga- the dawn and midnight masses, my university and college parties, my neighbors and Villa peeps, Clang and most important- my home,Mayet Kakay and  MY MAMANG!!!

 I miss you all the time!!! God knows this that is why I want to believe He is extremely taking care of you there. No drama!!! But I can never be happy anymore without you beside me, Ma!!:(

After Christmas Day mass at Azusa.

 One of my  constant prayers here in America is that no matter how tough and rough the roads may be, I will keep on praising and thanking God for the seen and invisible blessings in my life. It was a splendid way to start His birthday glorifying Him in the Eucharistic celebration with my Azusa family at St. Frances of Rome Catholic Church.

Keep calm. Wear red lipstick!!!

 Due to public expectations and demands , I wore my red lipstick for the annual family party!!! One of my life missions is to extend positivity and radiance to people around me. Even my PH priest friends agree to that!!:)

With cousins Awi and Joann

Spot the difference??:)

Santas all geared up for the traditional Money Line!!!

First time to participate in the Money Line. Byebye dollar bills!

Justin, Koyang Mark and Boo.

One of my all-time favorite adages goes like "Joy is a perpetual state of being. You can experience it both in high of happiness or depth of sadness." In extreme conditions of missing home , I continue to see the beauty of life.

From childhood up to this time, Christmas remains to be a special part of my life and calendar. This year's celebration was truly  challenging and new to me. Mamang and I were million miles apart.Nonetheless, these people surrounding me provide me comfort in a great way.

LOVE.HOPE.FAMILY.

Justin's 14th Birthday

I only have one nephew and his name is Justin Michael. His Mama, Ate Reggie became only aware recently of how his son's name initials was patterned after my 3 older brothers- Joseph Mark, Jose Melvin and John Miller!:)

Justin, nicknamed Jakjak was born 19th of December, 14 years ago at UST in Manila, prematurely at 6 and 1/2 months. Today, he is a consistent class achiever, a guitarist, track and basketball player.

Thank You God for the gift of this kind, simple, humble, sweet, intelligent young man in the family!!!

My CA Bffs

My mini-me Mykee!

Koyang Mark and Koyang Miller

Three experienced and successful RNs and one novice!:)

Dollar Hits Isawwww

Let the games begin in spite the rain.

We all love you Jak!!!! You are special to all of us!!! May you be blessed with courage, hope and joy to welcome all the things this world has to offer.


Family. Celebrate. Play.