I have this habit of screen grabbing quotes on social media, those adages that strike a chord in me. I ponder upon them as they are relatable in the past, present and future cycles. They are about love, friendship and life in general. For 2014, here are my most remarkable quotes:
I laugh at myself and corny jokes. Smiling is easier than frowning, it is proven to make you look young and fresh. My VP for Admin always observes my red lipstick,I once wondered loudly to him why he rarely asks about my job responsibilities and he told me it's because he knows I do my tasks well. Such trust humbles me. I know I still have the huge capacity to love someone…albeit the right one for the right reason.
I dine out alone in fast-food chains and fancy restaurants that offer sit-down and buffet services. I watch movies by myself, I like it that I can cry without shame when John Lloyd and the stars of The Best of Me and The Fault in Our Stars profess their love for one another onscreen. I even politely declined from a good person an invite to see Mockingjay with him . I wanted no distractions in witnessing the plight of Katniss and the Panem people. I am comfortable doing things by myself, in the same way I look forward and cherish moments I spend with friends like dancing at a club or simply sipping warm coffee over stories.
I am not an ultra-expressive type of person, the "huggy and kissy" kind. It still takes a Herculean effort for me to say I love you without awkwardness to people, but I think I am getting there one at a time. I know how life could be unpredictable and there's this real possibility we might not have a chance anymore to express our love for the people around us. I send random Hi and Hello messages to my long-distance friends, plan quick coffee and beer dates when schedules permit. For my family, I make sure I get to see or hear them on FaceTime and Viber weekly. No grand gestures needed to show the love, it's the pretty little thoughtful things that may count a lot.
There will always be things beyond our human control, no matter how we place on blueprint our life's plans,God has a way of revising them for bigger and better results that are likewise beyond our imagination.
These are the people that need to be nurtured and cared for. I do not have an army of acquaintances but I have a bunch of special individuals who keep me sane during sadness and cheer with me in celebratory milestones. These are the people who see the inner pain beyond the laughter and the soft spot that lies in the courageous face.
Many a people say I have a strong personality and I take it on a positive note. I do not bulk down easy peasy on trials and mishaps. I breathe and tell myself, "This too shall pass." I know that there are people with heavier problems and as what the witty Ramon Bautista wrote in his book, " Gusto mong walang problema? Mag-taong grasa ka!" I do not have a callous heart, I feel pain and misery to the point that I honor them. I allow myself to cry and sob even to the point of hiccups and red puffy eyes. Because it is OK to NOT be OK, really.We don't owe it to the world to be fine and mighty all the time.
Once I chanced upon a question, "If you have to have only one of the five senses, which would you rather choose?" Bar none, it will be the gift of sight for two main reasons: the irreplaceable happiness of seeing the faces of people I love and the satisfaction I obtain from reading books, novels, magazines and broadsheet. When I am too tired from teaching and other tasks, I read chapters of a novel to calm my nerves. I get to temporarily escape from the madness of real world thru the characters and plots. I would love to one day reread my complete collection of Harry Potter and Twilight books. James Patterson's suspense- action stories continue to bring atrial flutter to my heart, My current favorite authors are Emily Griffin and Gayle Forman, their Something Blue and Where She Went novels moved me to tears.I felt the anguish, sorrow, hope and love.
God's answers could be a resounding Yes, a gentle No or a gentle Wait. I admit I want an instant Yes to my petitions, nonetheless as my age( not actually my maturity) progresses, I get to accept and handle the No's and Wait's. Sabi ko nag, "Wala ng tatalino pa ke God, He simply is THE Smartest!!
Others may be harsh to me and I may be difficult to deal with. At most times though, it is I who persecutes "me" the most. I find it hard to forgive and understand myself for my shortcomings and flaws. I am learning to be gentle with myself now, accepting the truth that I am allowed to stumble, swing in messy directions once in a while.
Prior to my training in Makati, there was insane madness hovering around me. A huge leap of change in my future is coming nearer and I actually am scared with all its possible consequences. I am so attuned with my present life, I am at my comfort zone surrounded by my favorite people. May God's guidance lead the best winds of change for me.
Hmmm, maybe I will still one day open not only the door and windows but my whole heart to a whole new world of love. I still have a heart that beats. No to a jaded and cynic heart.
This is me and I am me. I am more than lucky to have great people who love me for me, despite my wickedness, erratic and twisted behavior. Maybe they see the "good" side of Michelle.:)
Just like that. There will always be A way. Pag gusto maraming paraan, pag ayaw madaming dahilan. Two individuals who live in two opposite sides of the globe at two complete opposite time zones will exhaust all effort to communicate. In the same manner that others won't run out of excuses just so to avoid connection. #NoExceptions
I agree with this that is why I share it! I love my family to the moon and back. As they live thousand miles away, God made sure I won't feel desolated He brought me loving and caring beings to be my families here. They count me and Mamang as theirs and that melts my heart. Di bale nga atang walang Kapuso, basta may Kapamilya!!:)
What are your memorable quotes of 2014???:)
Have a blessed and beautiful 2015!!!
Live.Laugh.Love.
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